Don't Look At Me
this is stolen from chris. i liked it enough that i had to copy it rather than just link to it.
don't look at me, because I don't want you to see me this way.
It's not that this isn't how I really am and that's the problem. see who I am is the sum of all the bad, ugly, messy, sad, pathetic, and useless parts with the thin camouflage of the residing good to hide discovery from the casual glance.
don't look at me, because I don't want you to see me this way.
i'm a small insect trapped in a glass jar who can see the blue skies above, but cannot climb up the invisible walls to meet it. life speeds by, blurring one day from the next and it's getting harder and harder to breath freely.
don't look at me, because I don't want you to see me this way.
it's getting late, and I don't mean the time. I spend my time playing out the inevitable oncoming headlights which will take me away or at least leave me alone. it's way past last call in the empty hall as I dance by myself in a pool of regrets and vomit.
don't look at me, because I don't want you to see me this way.
I don't want you to see me cry,
I don't want you to know how much I want to die,
stay away everything I say is a lie.
maybe tomorrow will be different, the sun will come up and I will apply my happy make-up to walk out onto the stage again.
Posted by ac at April 1, 2004 08:20 PM