Ramblings of an Anonymous Coward

Reflected Memories

the days continue to pass, but not one of them goes by without my mind wandering. my memories of past days and future desires are reflected in everything i see and do. i can hardly watch a television show without there being a reminder... songs sing out to me from nowhere... conversations overheard at lunch... even the occasional spam whispers...

i swear some minutes i think i'm going insane. even the word "nudge" has changed for me, albeit only in pronunciation. so much has changed, but has it been enough?

here are a few things that are floundering about my head that i've been unable to shake. i'm not even sure i want to...

I've said some things I'd rather not have and have pushed her away. Despite that she has remained the voice in my head. A voice I've been unable to drown out. One I don't want to drown out.

My jaw dropped to the floor as I sat on the couch staring at the time, wanting it to move more quickly. "This isn't a suggestion or recommendation", she said keeping her voice very professional, "just something to think about and I'll tell you why. You stay here and continue as normal, AC, you go off to [location omitted] and see how it goes." My heart raced -- "Did I just hear what I thought I heard", I thought quietly to myself as I sat there trying not to smile at the very idea. She continued, "Why? Because I would bet that within 6 months, probably less, the excitement would wear off and ..."

Listen, late last night, I heard the screen door slam
And a big yellow taxi took my girl away
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
They paved paradise and put up a parking lot

"I read this note", she said, "it's so sad. The person sounds very sad and unhappy. It makes me want to cry". I sat stunned.

I enjoy quotes, particularly ones that help me express how I feel or an opinion I have at the moment. This Mark Twain quite was recently given to someone else and it caught my eye -- "Never try to teach a pig to sing it wastes your time and annoys the pig". I'm not quite sure what to think about that.

Posted by ac at September 13, 2003 01:50 PM